"Ecce Panis Angelorum" (Behold the Bread of Angels), engraving by F.M.S. (probably Swiss) 1887.
This is something we aren’t used to. Prayer, most of us
instinctively believe, is asking for something: either simple petition (for
ourselves) or intercession (for someone else). But adoration? It conjures up
images of people from another age kneeling for hours before a monstrance, a
crucifix, or an icon, with a kind of rapt attention that could not be further
from our own tendency to the quick coffee-break tweet or text. There seems to
be a huge distance between them and us.
In what way is it accessible to us? If we are contemplative
monks or nuns, it is part of our world quite naturally – though it may still be
hard to achieve. If we are among the very devout – I know a woman who was a
Carmelite novice for 6 years, and even after that went to Mass daily for at
least 5 more – the liturgical and devotional rhythm of the Church will at the
least suggest it on certain occasions, such as yesterday’s Feast of the Sacred
Heart, and somewhere in our ecclesiastical world there will be introductions to
it .
But for the rest of us, devout without always inhaling,
stumbling along what is often a rocky path, busy with countless details of what
a friend of mine calls the Humdrumlies – what of us? The Prayer of Adoration
seems almost like an unattainable luxury. “If we had time….” we murmur. And
even those of us who have learnt from time to time to take an hour for Francis
de Sales’ meditation find the thought of Adoration as a form of prayer, well,
extreme.
Perhaps one way in is the prayer of thanksgiving. This at
least releases us from the asking mode, and is still something we intuitively
understand. The other day I – well into my seventies, far from willowy and
reasonably arthritic – slipped and fell in the shower. As I got up with no more
than a slightly bruised feeling, I instinctively said, “Wow, thank you, Lord –
this is how many of us wrinklies die.”
Whatever we intelligently believe about the way God does or does not
micromanage the world, when we have a narrow escape or win the lottery or find
that someone we have adored from afar actually returns our feelings, it is a
common human reaction to give thanks.
If we think about this, and go beyond the immediate, we feel
thankful about so many things; and going to a level deeper than that, we can
relate our thanksgiving to the fact that we have faith, that we believe, that
we have been baptised, that we feel fulfilled about going to church; and if our
discernment is very sharpened, we can give thanks for the gift given to us on
the Cross.
Now think of the Eucharist. It moves from penitence
(housecleaning, as our priest says: wiping the mud off your shoes as you come
in) to glorifying the God that forgives us, to learning Scripture in readings,
to being helped to understand what we’ve learnt, in a homily, to summing it up
in a Creed. Then it moves on to prayer. First the prayer of intercession,
moving us out of ourselves in asking God’a mercy on the world; then the prayer
of consecration.
And it is within that – at the moment of consecration, when
one can at least imagine (as a Zwinglian might) and at most know (as a Catholic
does) that the Son of God (and thus the Trinity) is truly, really and actually
present here in front of us – that we can perhaps glimpse the Prayer of
Adoration. As the priest lifts up the consecrated Elements, we kneel (or some
of us do) and fix them with our gaze, and feel in a new and very specific and
present way the Presence of Christ – and thus the here-and-now reality of the
gift of God’s love. And so, for a brief moment (because modern Eucharists are
much too fast), we sense something beyond thanksgiving: the Prayer of
Adoration. Just being there and worshipping that Presence, that cosmic Glory
making itself small enough to fit into the palm of my crossed hands.
After that, there are further stages, other elements to
Adore. If you were brought up Protestant, the Sacred Heart is harder; but when
you learn to think in symbols, not to translate them but to let their
physicality continue to be even as you understand and feel the inward meaning
(which is, after all, what you do with the Eucharist: a sacrament is “the
outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual grace” but the point is,
it’s both) – well, then you’ve at
least set a wobbly foot on the path of Adoration. A long road, but we know
where it ends: read Revelations. It ends in Joy.
Hat Tip: Ian Jackson reminds me that F.M.S. was the usual signature of the Marist Fathers: Fratres Maristae a Scholis. And this engraving, like others in the same style that can be found on the Web, came (I believe) from a Swiss Marist Missal.
Hat Tip: Ian Jackson reminds me that F.M.S. was the usual signature of the Marist Fathers: Fratres Maristae a Scholis. And this engraving, like others in the same style that can be found on the Web, came (I believe) from a Swiss Marist Missal.